hi jon i hope that u know how much i think of u and miss u..... every day u pass through my miind and i wish this was a big joke but i come to realize that its not and ur gone..... i dont want ur family to feel this pain and on ur birthday i wish that god can let u come down from heaven and be with us to celebrate u turning 26.... even if it was one last time i wish i could see u again and see the smile and laughter that i loved so much..... i read the letters that u wrote to me and i start to cry because i miss u and i didnt get to see u again>>>> please jonathan visit me in my dreams and tell me that u r happy and that ur watching over all of us especially ur family cus i know they miss and love u as i do... please come to me in my dreams and tell me everything will be ok..... i miss u and i will see u soon mauricio wen my time comesor hopefully in my dreams

hey i went by ur site  with billy on friday and i left some flowers i hope u like them also with the note i left u... i miss u jon there is not a day that i dont think about u how happy i would be to know that ur family didnt have to feel any pain and u could be here with them ... with ur friends... i miss u and i know u r looking down on all of us and spreading ur love and smile... u know i could never stay mad at u with that smile lol... i cant seem not to cry writing things to u... ive read wat ur mom and aunt have written to u and they r in pain so please take them in ur wings and let them know u love them hear their prayers for u and watch over them.... i will be at ur site around ur birthday to give my gift to u ok so i hope u shine up the sky the way i know u did wen i got there on friday... u shine everything up... well i say good bye for now te extrano y te amo jon  

                                                   i love u always

                                                     nidia

remembering the first time i saw u in beach channel and seeing the pictures that i have kept of us together have made me grieve for ur loss for so long....i remember going to dinner with u my family and ur mom at that chinese buffet, u were the first that i brought to my dad and he loved u just like i have always... u were there to cheer me on wen i had to sing at a show , u made me feel like it was the best show than before even wen i thought it was bad.... the fact that we did so much together has stayed in my heart... realize that i love u now as i did wen we were 16 is hard to deal with because ur not here... i miss u... i even remember that year in the summer u told my mom to tell me u were coming to see me soon so we could be together.... she told me of ur smile that day how i imagined it was u lighting up the sky more than the sun could ever do.... please just dont ever stop looking after ur mom and family... and remeber that i loved u then and i will always love u  Te amo Mauricio por siempre  with tears in my eyes i will say good bye and never forget who u were to me and how much the love i have for u will be kept in my heart and soul... i will see u up there 

                                          I will love u always ,  Nidia

Christmas 2008

Jonathan, another Christmas is here and you are in heaven celebrating with all the angels.

Boy, do I miss you so much. Holidays, your birthday and angel date are so tough on me. I get so sad and emotions run so deep.

I wish you were here, shining that gorgeous smile of yours. That smile that would make me smile.

You know seeing the picture of you, me, the christmas tree and the dancing penguin made my heart warm and at the same time, my heart cries. It cries for you.

Jon, thank your mommy for the beautiful christmas gift and give her a kiss for me.

Well, my dear Angel, your Titi B will carry you in her heart 4 ever. No one can ever take that away from me.

Jonathan, this Christmas and always, wrap those angel wings around us, your family and send us your love.

May God Bless us today, tomorrow and always and may he send us his love and give us strength to continue each day, as each day is a difficult one without our Jonathan.

Tonight, Jesus Christ will be born, let us rejoice ! 

Love, Titi B

Jonathan - Here I am thousand of miles away from home in Shanghai, China and it's October 30th already eventhough back at home it's October 29th. So I have a double hard time as I will go through October 30th twice. This is a day that I hate the most, the day that you were taken from us. A day that I would like to erase from my mind but will have to carry with me for my entire life. The date that my heart was riped into thousands of pieces in grief.

If you were here with us physically today, I would hug you and let you know how much I love you and how many dreams I had for you. Dreams that were taken from us, snatched in an instant that horrible night. Today, I pray that you knew how much you meant and will always mean to us to me. The family is and will also be in grief by losing you.

I pray that you surround us with your love and that you watch over your mom, dad and our entire family/friends. Jonathan, shine your beautiful smile and spread those beautiful angel wings and wrap us in your love.

Jonathan, I'm loving you always and never forgetting you as you are a part of me forever.

Love your Titi Beatriz (thousand of miles away from home but my heart and thoughts are with my entire family)

Cool Slideshows!

I ASK MY SELF WHY?  ( WHY U LEFT ME) I GO LOOKING FOR THE ANSWER AND I JUST KEEP HITTING BRICK WALLS.  I GET VERY ANGRY AT MY SELF FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO PROTECT U.  I FEEL SO QUILTY, I EVEN GET ANGRY AT THE WORLD WHEN I CANT DEAL WITH SOMETHING. I MISS THE TIMES WHEN I WAS DOWN THAT U WOULD PICK ME UP AND TELL ME.." MOM YOU HAVE TO LIVE UR LIFE TO THE FULLEST U ONLY LIVE ONCE " SOMETIMES WHEN I TRY TO DO JUST THAT SOMEONE OR SOMETHING BRINGS ME BACK DOWN. HOW I WISH U WERE THERE SO I WOULDNT HAVE TO HIT THAT BRICK WALL. SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO RUN AND KEEP RUNNING AND NEVER TURN BACK..BUT I DONT WANT U TO THINK THAT UR MOM IS A QUITTER. I ALWAYS THINK ABOUT THE TIME I TOLD U JON, IF U START SOMETHING ( LIKE FOOTBALL EXTRA) U MUST FINISH IT.  AND EVEN THOUGH SOMETIMES U DIDNT WIN THE GAME I WAS THERE TO PICK U UP.  I MISS THOSE TIME. I MISS U , LIFE JUST ISNT THE SAME SINCE YOU'VE BEEN GONE.  MY HEART IS BROKEN IN A MILLION PIECES. I WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU YESTERDAY AT WORK AND TELLING UR STORY AND I HAD TWO OF MY FRIENDS AT WORK CRY ..ONE FRIEND EVEN RAN OUT OF THE ROOM BECAUSE SHE COULDNT STAND THE PAIN. JON SHE FELT AND AND CRIED 4 U.  I HAD TO CHEER HER UP .WITH THE GOOD MEMORIES U AND I SHARED. AND ALTHOUGH SHE SMILE, WE BOTH WERE DYING INSDE ..WE HIDE BEHIND THAT SMILE..I WANT U TO KNOW THAT THE WHOLE (NYC 911 DEPT) IN MY JOB STILL ASK ABOUT U AND UR CASE. THEY R PRAYING FOR JUSTICE. WE NEED U TO ASK GOD TO BREAK THOSE BRICK WALLS SO THAT JUSTICE CAN PREVAIL. SO I LEAVE U WITH THIS. KNOW THAT I UR MOM WILL NEVER GIVE UP ON U!!!!!!! I LOVE U MY SON.